Elena
turned 7 months this week…and I turn 37…I always believed that I would marry at
25, have 2 or 3 kids by 30 & would be deeply immersed in raising children
by the time I turned 37…that obviously didn’t work out…but I’ll take what I got
thank you very much! I mean, the guy I was dating at 25 who I expected to marry
& have those 2 or 3 children with, I can’t even fathom what a mistake that
would have been. Someday maybe I’ll write about what a nightmare that
relationship turned out to be but for now, take my word for it, I am colossally
better off…hindsight & all.
I’ve
been thinking a lot lately about how glad I am NOT to be in a relationship
right now. Surprises the hell out of me! I never thought I’d feel this way. Oh
sure, I miss the emotional support & extra pair of hands (& paycheck) a
partner would provide but on the other hand, I am glad I don’t have to think
about having sex, I’m grateful I can give Elena my undivided attention &
not have to be concerned about a partner’s needs.
Then
there’s the exciting milestones Elena has hit lately…her first tooth popped
thru, bottom right, & the one next to it has just broke thru too. She’s
figured out how to sit up from laying down …she tentatively crawls before
sprawling on her belly…she pulls herself up on EVERYTHING…no matter how sturdy
the object is. She then likes to let go & turn to look for me, to make sure
I’m watching I guess, which inevitably results in her falling…she has also
figured out that she can “walk” along whatever she’s pulled herself up on. Fun
for her, nerve-wracking for me! Do I miss having a partner to share these amazing
moments with? Honestly, not really. My Mom & Gramma both live with me…&
there are always friends & other family just a text or phone call away to
share a moment with.
The
things I do miss about not having a partner, like the extra pair of hands or
extra paycheck, aren’t really great reasons to be in a relationship…down the
road, as Elena gets older, I’m sure my heart will open up again to the idea of
dating & being in a relationship…for now, I’m quite content putting all my energy
into raising Elena & giving her my undivided attention...but if one more
person says, “well now is when you’ll meet Mr. Right since you least expect it…blah,
blah, blah” I might punch them!
And now for some brag photos...these are from Elena's Half Year photo shoot...I couldn't help but make the 1st one my new header!!
