Monday, October 31, 2011


Elena's 1st Halloween...A Pictorial

We went to a Vampire Party on Saturday...having been a vampire genre fan since Anne Rice & since Elena's name came from Vampire Diaries, I couldn't pass up this t-shirt, it says "My Daddy's a Vampire"

Guess What??? Pumpkin Butt!!!

This is the best photo I could get of today's costume...

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Me Time...Take Two

Okay…here I am week 2 of Me Time. Thank you so much for your support & very excellent advice on my last post. It really took me by surprise how hard it was. I mean, I’d been out without Elena many times before…but last week was the first time she went out without me…I was home & she was out & the house was so quiet. & I didn’t know what to do with myself. This week I made sure I had a plan…I actually have a whole list of things to do…I haven’t done any it…
Instead, let's just enjoy some silliness...
Elena's Muffin Top

Her Bubble Beard

And just being silly trying on hats

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

I Didn't Expect This

UGH!!! Okay, so for the last couple weeks, my Mom & I have been planning for Elena to go with her to her church Wednesday mornings so that I can have some Me Time & Elena can start getting use to being away from me. We had decided that today would be the 1st day since I have a Dr appointment. I have been looking forward to this since we came up with the idea...the Me Time, not the Dr appointment.

Now, here I am, all alone in my house...I don't like it. I've been crying since they left. Chances are, they'll be home before I even leave for my appointment but I just feel empty. How the hell am I going to go back to work?

To be honest, I'd been trying to back out of letting her go since last night. My Mom, being the wise women she is, gently insisted she take Elena & reassuringly told me Elena would be just fine...which I know she will be but I can't help but wonder how she is...what is she thinking? Is she wondering where I am? Is she feeling lost without me like I am without her? Rationally I know it's better for her to have some time away from me as much as it benefits me to be away from her...but UGH!!!

Sunday, October 9, 2011

7 ~ 37

Elena turned 7 months this week…and I turn 37…I always believed that I would marry at 25, have 2 or 3 kids by 30 & would be deeply immersed in raising children by the time I turned 37…that obviously didn’t work out…but I’ll take what I got thank you very much! I mean, the guy I was dating at 25 who I expected to marry & have those 2 or 3 children with, I can’t even fathom what a mistake that would have been. Someday maybe I’ll write about what a nightmare that relationship turned out to be but for now, take my word for it, I am colossally better off…hindsight & all.
I’ve been thinking a lot lately about how glad I am NOT to be in a relationship right now. Surprises the hell out of me! I never thought I’d feel this way. Oh sure, I miss the emotional support & extra pair of hands (& paycheck) a partner would provide but on the other hand, I am glad I don’t have to think about having sex, I’m grateful I can give Elena my undivided attention & not have to be concerned about a partner’s needs.
Then there’s the exciting milestones Elena has hit lately…her first tooth popped thru, bottom right, & the one next to it has just broke thru too. She’s figured out how to sit up from laying down …she tentatively crawls before sprawling on her belly…she pulls herself up on EVERYTHING…no matter how sturdy the object is. She then likes to let go & turn to look for me, to make sure I’m watching I guess, which inevitably results in her falling…she has also figured out that she can “walk” along whatever she’s pulled herself up on. Fun for her, nerve-wracking for me! Do I miss having a partner to share these amazing moments with? Honestly, not really. My Mom & Gramma both live with me…& there are always friends & other family just a text or phone call away to share a moment with.
The things I do miss about not having a partner, like the extra pair of hands or extra paycheck, aren’t really great reasons to be in a relationship…down the road, as Elena gets older, I’m sure my heart will open up again to the idea of dating & being in a relationship…for now, I’m quite content putting all my energy into raising Elena & giving her my undivided attention...but if one more person says, “well now is when you’ll meet Mr. Right since you least expect it…blah, blah, blah” I might punch them!
And now for some brag photos...these are from Elena's Half Year photo shoot...I couldn't help but make the 1st one my new header!!