Because she's M.I.A...I've been waiting & waiting for her to arrive & fear she may be lost!
I think that's one thing anyone who is going to start TTC should know (because I wasn't prepared for it), whether they are a single gal like me or in a couple, they need to know that the 2ww is just the tip of the iceberg when it comes to waiting during this process.
"Destiny is a Fickle Bitch" ~ Benjamin Linus
This is one of my favourite Lost quotes...well Time is pretty fickle herself!!! It amazes me that my 1st IUI was ONLY 2 months ago today, yet my miscarriage seems like a lifetime ago & it has ALREADY been 3 weeks since then...in some ways it seems like time is standing still, then in other ways I cannot believe it is already almost June!!!
I will admit that as much as I want to get moving on try #2, I am also a little afraid...afraid there won't be a BFP this time, afraid there will be, afraid I'll miscarry again, etc...I was also afraid to call the Donor Clinic for fear my Donor wouldn't be available any longer...well I finally got my nerve up to call today...Relief! My donor is still available!! The nurse said there are quite a few vials available...since I don't know when I'll need it though, I wasn't sure if I could order now, which led to a funny conversation:
Me: Since there are many vials available, can I just wait?Nurse: Well, yes but you never know...These things go in spits & spurts.Me: No pun intended, right?
We had a good laugh about that! She was great though, she placed an order for me for June 7th so that a vial would be kept on hold for me, just in case, but if I need it sooner (which I doubt) then I can call again.
I am so relieved to have this taken care of...I was afraid I would have to go back to the Donor-Picking-Drawing-Board...I also feel that using the same donor again will boost my odds.
That's it for me for now...if anyone does see my Aunt Flo, can you direct her my way?